Thursday, January 12, 2006
facets syllabus
hello world
it is 1:55 am, and being the irresponsible student i am, i have only just accomplished my third term facets syllabus (shhh! don't tell robin!)
sigh
i thought i'd post because... (i'm online to email it to her) it only hit me now. sure, i know we're going to graduate, that we're going to leave, but the weight of that finally came crashing down while i was polishing off the syllabus. especially when i was doing the last session. i realized i only have seven more meetings with my club, and the seventh is a good-bye.
in the previous years, we've upheld some rituals in facets. this is the first year that they'll actually mean something to me... every year i thank people, i give members awards, i watch as the editors pass on the torch... but they're all more or less empty actions to me. i'll always have facets again next year.
not next year.
it's hard to describe what it's like to end an era. i've been in facets since the beginning of high school, i've been club head for 3 years. somehow, i haven't wrapped myself around the idea that i have to let the club go. it won't be mine anymore. no more editing, and leading prayers, and assigning activities, and "socializing," and "mentoring" - going around making helpful comments... sigh. it's hard to know that i won't be stepping back into that classroom and taking charge, and being with my writers. i hope i don't cry. or i do...
teambuilding this year was the best. just a thought.
the poet ♥
9:55 AM
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